Hibernating Honey Bear ^.^

Hello lovelies!

❆ It's winter time!! ❆

I know it's been so long since my last entry and I know I should've posted things as they happened. However, due to certain circumstances, I wasn't able to do that. Let's just say I've hibernated for a while. I'd still love to let you know what's been up so here are some few stuff I'd like to share :3

Leaving the Philippines was a big challenge. It wasn't like working in another country for a few years. It wasn't like going to college and be able to go home every few months. It definitely wasn't like any of my trips where I would be gone for a week or two - indulging in a memorable vacation.

This time, I was leaving for good.

It's hard to fathom leaving the country that I've always loved. Despite all the flaws you may have heard or know about it, it will always be my homeland. It was never in my plan to leave forever and settle in a different country, let alone it being halfway across the globe. Coming back for a week or two vacation every two years will feel so different now.

Meeting Good Ole Friends

Before I left, there was one thing I have to do - meet most of the people that matter to me. I know it's impossible to get them all together, consider that there's a bunch of good friends. But I had to see some of my closest loves!

It was very bittersweet, but I was so happy I was able to see them again.

From the amazing people who loved me for who I was despite my flaws way back the time that I was still getting to know myself; to the people who took care of me and treated me like a baby when I first started working; up to the person who loved me when I was at my worst.

I know there are so much more to thank and I should've seen, but I just didn't have the time (and funds omg!). But yeah, this was the time when I was off to meet many people - because I would miss them so much!

Cry. Just When It's Too Much

I can't cry. Not in front of you.

In a place that's thousands of miles away from home, is a place that I also now call home.

Flying all the way across the Pacific to come here was my biggest challenge. Leave the country I love and my comfort zone which is my family was something I never planned for in my life. Traveling is a part of me, but moving permanently in foreign soil is completely different.

It's been two months since I arrived in the USA. Everything seemed to be going well, until a month later things seem to be spiraling down. There have been changes in work, environment, and everything else.

The emotions are taking its toll.

But what to do? What should I do??

Alex Bear is a strong man. He is a man of virtue, integrity and honesty. I have always adored his principles, his being responsible, and his will. Behind this almost invincible image is a soft and kind husband. Like me, there is a fragile piece that lies within our hearts.

I've sealed my fragile piece a long time ago. As emotional as I am, I try not to get broken. It's had to be strong all the time tho. But right now, I can't cry. I have to be reliable. Strong. Courageous.

I have to cry.

xoxo

~ Honey Bear ~

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